A Guide to Baby’s 1st Xmas

Happy Holidays to everyone out there. We hope you’re having an amazing holiday season.

Because a lot of people have no idea what to get for little ones, we thought this would be a great post!

Let’s jump right in…

Gift 1: Something you want.

Maxy is just a tiny little fella so he may not have “wants” in the traditional sense, so we went with toys. Below is a Burt’s Bees Baby toy. Best part is, he’s already had this, he’s just never played with it.

Gift 2: Something you need.

Babies always need a ton of stuff; from diapers and wipes to teethers and soap. So we wrapped up his wipes and teethers and other things that he needed. I mean, he needs it’s anyways, why not make it a gift? 🙂 Below is a teether set that we gave him.

Gift 3: Something to wear.

This goes without saying, babies grow like crazy so it’s always thoughtful to give a little one some clothes. Here is a cute little Cat & Jack clearance outfit from Target and a pack of adorable Gerber sleepers!

Gift 4: Something to read.

Here is something you may not have thought of: Books! We started reading to Maxy when he first came home from the hospital and you can really tell. When he sees books, his face lights up like nobody’s business. He smiles and even tries to turn the pages. We had no choice but to get him some awesome books. Pictured below are the 17 books we scored for under $15 from Marshall’s. Best part is, books are the gifts that keep giving.


What to Say to Someone Who Has Lost a Parent.

So I guess I will talk a little about my dad b/c he has only been mentioned briefly, in an old post.

Long story short, he died when I was seven.

B/c I was so young, I do not remember much about him and I do not feel I was deeply effected by his absence in my life. And I know many people could/would argue that have been effected whether or not I realize it.

Growing up, I do not remember anyone reaching out to me and offering their love/support after his death, and it was okay b/c we (my siblings and I) always had our mother. Not to mention I probably did not realize all that was happening, so I was able to be taken care of by my mother.

Well my mother has been a single parent since she had my older brother at age 15. And she did a wonderful job taking care of my five siblings all our lives.

Well recently, yesterday, she passed away and it is totally different.

I have so much to deal with and so much to worry about for myself. However, I am the least of my worries. I have five siblings who need me right now. My youngest sister is only eight, she literally cannot comprehend what is going on.

It breaks my heart more than anyone could ever imagine. I would never wish for anyone to lose a parent or even a close parent figure. I have never felt more helpless in my entire life. I have never felt the need to be stronger.

And I know there are so many people, family, friends, and even my recently acquired sorority sisters who are all asking how they could help. I do not know.

While I understand some people do not know what to say to me, I completely understand what they are going through b/c I cannot even find the words to comfort my siblings.

What am I supposed to say to minors who have lost their only capable parent? What do I say when they say they miss her? What can I even do to take their pain away? I am in the same situation and I cannot even help them in this way.

I sit here and wipe all the tears as I write and it hurts so bad. Physically my throat hurts from crying so much, mentally I do not even know what to say to them so that hurts, emotionally I cannot even imagine how they feel b/c we are six different personalities. I do not know every detail of their relationship with her so I cannot understand.

And it is even different for me b/c I have Jake. Jake is literally the most amazing man I have ever laid eyes on. He has been there since her accident and has not left my side since. He has called off work. He has brought us dinner/lunch/breakfast. He has talked to my siblings and me. He has offered any and every service you can think of. He has wiped tears. He has has stayed up all night just to hug me. It is just so reassuring to know that he feels this way, although we only met this year. I thank God for sending him and his parents for making him. I love him so much and I am so thankful for him.

And even though it hurts me b/c I lost my mom, it hurts me even more b/c they lost her too.

I love them more than anything and I want nothing but the best for each and every one of them.

Pinch Me, I Must Be Dreaming.


Oh. Em. Gee! (I literally keep screaming b/c I cannot even believe I am about to announce this.)

Jake…and I, had our first baby, together. (:

I know I never announced that we were expecting but that is b/c we built our baby.

Now. Without further ado, I introduce to you: Cassio R-D. Our Build-A-Bear son.

Today we had the pleasure of creating him. As exciting as this is, it is not the biggest part of our news.

Today, we even had the pleasure of checking out…PAUSE.

Lets first take a quick look at our relationship, how I feel about him, and how he feels about me.

*Note: This is long, feel free to skip to the next italic section to get the short version of this post.*

Our Story:
we met ‘online’ Jan. 2014. We hung out soon after. Our first meeting was really laid back and casual. While I thought he was a little boring, and he thought I was crazy (I pulled my taser out on him. Lol.) We both wanted to see each other again.

By Feb. 2014, we knew we would be together. He asked me out, and I agreed. We have exclusively been dating since then.

Not long after, he expressed his love for me. While I was a little surprised (b/c technically he claimed to have loved me before we were dating), I actually believed him.

Well since then, we have moved in together. Met the parents. (Grand parents and cousins too). Etc.

Recently, during a deep conversation with him, I realized just how much he means to me. I realized that he is literally he most amazing man that I know (and in the world). There is nothing I would not do for him. And I really love him. Everything about him.

I enjoy how he keeps me grounded and can always calm me down. I enjoy how easily he can make me laugh and smile. I enjoy how he interacts with my family. I enjoy how dedicated he is to making me happy. I enjoy how he makes me a better person. And most importantly, I enjoy how he accept me as I am. (Like really, I am in serious need of anger management and he is so dedicated to helping me through the process.)

Just for the record, I have never felt like this about anyone before. He is my first love, as well as my first serious relationship. There is not anyone else I would rather be with. He impresses and surprises me everyday. I cannot wait until we can spend the rest of our days together.

Back to the initial story…

Today, Jake and I looked at some rings! Yes, rings. Wedding rings. Engagement rings. Promise rings. Etc.

It was soo much fun. I tried some things on. We talked prices, styles, colors, materials, etc. The women were so nice and helpful. They took my ‘no vision’ (b/c this was our first day looking, we had nothing in mind) an turned it into a beautiful ring.

Yep, this means we picked the ring out. (Pics coming soon, as it first has to be sized and picked up).

I cannot wait to share the pics with everyone.

Now, as anyone can imagine, this day was beyond perfect and special. I do not think you guys actually understand!

The past few days, we stayed the night at my moms place (to celebrate Mimi’s birthday -pics coming soon). However, my mom mentioned that (long story short) I was smothering Jake.

And jokingly, he agreed. I was devastated. Not b/c he agreed, but b/c this was the first time anyone has ever said anything. And… I know it is true.

B/c we live together, we obviously do not get much time apart. However, whenever we go out, I have to hold his hand. Or sit next to him. And basically… smother him.

Now, it is not intentional however, since he started third shift, our schedule has been off. He gets home early, we eat. Nap. I get up soon after, but he is still sleeping. And before you know it, he is getting up and ready for work.

While we are physically together everyday, we have not spent as much time together. We have not done dinner and a movie in a couple weeks. We have not cooked together for a while. And we have not taken a walk for a while. It has been work-work-work for the past few weeks.

Then, to make things worse, we have not even been spending time together on his off days. We used to spend those days staying in bed and cuddling, but b/c he is helping my family paint, we have been with them. And everyone loves him, so they want to hang out with him. And play with him. And talk to him. So I have been forced to share my boyfriend with everyone else, note- our lack of time alone.

I know I should be happy that everyone loves him, and he loves them however, it just makes me feel like I never get him to myself. It also made me realize just how mean I am. Not to him, but to everyone. (I should be excused, I need anger management… like really). But, I shall not justify anything. I guess there is a small part of me that is afraid he will possibly break up with me b/c ‘I am so rude and so mean.’

So after a long few days of feeling like a terrible and annoying gf, I decided to give him a break and stay away for the weekend. But after spending time together today, we assured me that I have nothing to worry about.

It feels good. No great. Well… it is an inexplicable feeling.

Well this has been a very long and emotional post (no, I did not cry… I am not the crying type.), I must bring it to an end. For I have some things to look up and some planning to do.

But… to recap, we had a baby bear and picked out the most beautiful ring in the world today. I am internally and externally grateful for Jake.

A Party For Jake.


Lets first discuss this pic: It is my ‘Happy Birthday’ page. It includes some hand lettering as well as illustrations. As you can see, I am getting pretty darn good. 🙂

I am really proud of my work, so more pics coming soon.

So July 6 will be Jake’s 25th birthday*. So with his birthday coming up, I decided to buy him a gift and throw him a surprise party.

The Gift:

As you probably can guess, the gift was the hardest part. I could not decide what to get him. He does not play videos games, he does not have any real hobbies, and I hate getting people things they ‘need’ over things they ‘want’ for their birthday. After searching long and hard, I could not choose between a Beef Jerky variety set and Doctor Who disappearing coffee mug.

Well we played a game where I call out random gifts in a random order (with the two gifts I was most heavily considering included) and he told me ‘yes’ or ‘no’ on whether or not he would want it.

It turned out he did not want either. 😦

And my initial thought was to get him a really nice and rather expensive Coach wallet. (It was like super nice and he needed one b/c his old one was falling apart.) But… he needed it and I know he is not particularly into expensive things.

So I literally had no idea what to get him and I wanted to give up. But we went to the outlet mall and could not pass up the great sales going on in Coach and we ended up with a Coach wallet (for him) and a Coach bag (for me). 😉

Everything was great.

The Party:

Due to everything going on, we had to postpone the party to one day later. And right before I knew it my mom had shared the news, so it was no longer a surprise.

So yesterday we grilled a few things, had some pasta, and cake. It was a lot of fun. I think he enjoyed himself. We even saw fireworks downtown and did some sparklers with the littles.

Over the time we stayed with my family, he talked to his parents, who obviously wanted to come visit him for his birthday.

Only problem is, they planned to come Sunday and I would be here Sunday b/c I have a community service-free weekend.

The Parents:

Because they were planning to come this weekend, I asked if he wanted me to go home so he could spend time with them alone.

Well he stated that I could stay, if I wanted to meet him. (Awkward Moment.)

Now, it is not that I do not want to meet them. I just feel that he felt a bit obligated b/c he has met my entire family. I would have preferred he allowed me to meet them on his own terms, perhaps a time when he felt more comfortable and less obligated. I am in no rush to meet them, I just like for things to happen naturally.

So we did not talk about it more, until he was headed to work. I attempted to get out of it, by saying I would go home and come back next weekend. However, it was too late. Apparently he told his dad that I would be here. So I got stuck here in a sense.

And now I just feel awkward b/c I am not really sure he genuinely wants me to meet them.

But for the record, I am not upset nor am I nervous. Everyone loves me.

So expect another post after the weekend.

From, My Soulmate.


In case you did not know, Coke is running a new campaign. The ‘Share a Coke” campaign. So at this time you may notice ‘personalized’ Coke cans/bottles. Apparently the company took the 250 most common names to use for the project. Cute, right? Yep.

Any-who, Jake decided to ‘Share a Coke’ with me. Lol but unfortunately they did not have my name. (Of Course! Ps… if your name is not on a can, Coke will be doing a tour this Summer so you can create your own personalized can. Visit the campaign site to find tour dates/sites.)

However, while shopping the other day he bought a 12 pack b/c it was on sale. Inside of this box they used more general titles for people (instead of names). They included: BFF, Buddy, Star, Legend…etc.

So I was lucky enough to get the ‘Soulmate’ can from Jake. (Pictured above). And it was so sweet.

Now, Jake is obviously really sweet… and I am not. However, he does often try to make me sweeter. (Lol). He always convinces me to do the right thing, and to apologize, etc. And I surely do appreciate it. However, recently, when I did not take his advice on apologizing, he was pretty ‘disappointed in me.’

(The Background: I was sitting on the couch watching tv, when my younger brother -9years- decided to throw things at me. Now, he threw more than one thing at me, and I politely asked him to stop. But when he did not stop, I grew very upset and threw a plastic pack of baby diapers at him. He began to cry. And guess who was the bad guy??? -If you guessed me, correct!)

Since he has decided to share his Coke, I guess I am now in the clear. Ps…funny side note, I actually do not drink soda, therefore he essentially shared the can and drank the soda. Lol.

My Own Life.


I have my own life, too.

So just today while gazing at my site’s beautiful new design, I realized that all my recent posts have included Jake.

Jake this. Jake that. Jake, Jake, Jake… we keep hearing about Jake.

But you know what? I have my own life too. This is my life that exists outside of my relationship with him. (Lol I could not dare throw his name in there another time.)

Therefore, this post is All About Me! (Lucky you. And yes, I know I have already mentioned him… but I mean starting from this point on.)

So here are a few things I have been working on, as I am always working on myself.

I have started Insanity. Yep, that super extra hard workout circuit. And let me tell you, it is not for the weak! I mean the moves themselves are pretty difficult. Like seriously. I cannot do push-ups, and Shawn T has us doing moving push-ups. Smh.

I decided to start Insanity b/c I recently learned that I am one pound over weight. (Yes, one pound.) While my friends and family laugh at me for even caring, I think this is huge. But let me be clear, it is not so much about how I look b/c I know I am beautiful. Plus no one would have even known I was overweight had I not mentioned it.

It is about how I feel. I do not feel good. I actually feel fat, or… like my body is full of unhealthy stuff.

Therefore I have started eating better, more fresh fruits and veggies (and my God they are expensive!). And again, I have started the workout videos. In addition to those, I also have a number of workouts that I do that are more ballet and body toning centered.

So, before classes start I will be posting my ‘Before & After’ shots.

Another major thing going on with me is my Resolution Guide. I am still currently working on all my goals, some are a lot harder than others but I will be posting the progress upon completion.

My lettering, as you can see I have been practicing. I cannot wait for you guys to see the progress in that too.

Productivity wise, I am currently seeking a second job. I need the extra cash to pay for ballet. Which is pretty expensive.

That is all I shall include at this time, as I am going to start my workout.

Good Day!